It's holiday?.....

It's holiday! Today, is the second day of holiday? Today, i went out to have dinner with amelia and huilin at shabu sai. :) The initial plan is to meet berly at jem but she say she wanna sleep and it will be too rush then for the the movie that we wanna catch 'Everybody business'. So we decided to change it to tomorrow and meet up with the girls instead. ^^ I meet them at causeway point and i reach early today! which is the shocking? haha so i waited and walked around the shopping mall waiting for them to come. Well, i met someone that i dun want to meet today. Apparently, she was working at WATAMI today. In the past, if i see her i will most probably say hi with a bright smile but now i don't think i can do that anymore. I did try to avoid her of course it was darn obvious haha. Oh well it's better off like this isn't it? For me as a person if i chose to let a person go and not be a friend of yours i will cut it off very cleanly. I don't see a need putting so much effort which i already did and u didn't so that's how i do things. Ok! So initially huilin wanted to eat at crystal jade haha rich girl aye. However, we ended waiting at the shabu sai and queue for our turn. It was a freaking long wait and i was getting really hungry. When it's our turn we gave up one table for another family because it's a outside seat and we want it to be inside. So, we waited for a better one. :) Well, i work at shabu sai before and i know the staff and the food they have there so we ordered like a pro haha :) not too much meat and not too little just right for all three of us. I especially hate people ordering lots of meat because they think they can finish all of it. It's extremely wasteful because all the meat that is taken out of the fridge need to be thrown. Imagine you kill them and they die just like that and u throw away them just like that again? So evil isn't it? It's lucky that we didn't waste any meat except for some leftover chicken :P

About the past few days or month of my life it have been pretty horrible fantastic or sad. After, my very long holiday school started on a whole new module. There are some new lecturers which is quite nice. Some lecturers are the same but for a different module. Everything is moving so fast. Like after a few weeks of lectures we got our assignments. We need to complete them really fast. I was lucky enough to get a A+ for my typography assignment. Well they say you might unknowingly put in 110% of effort on the work you like. However, i don't even know if i like it or not. I don't even have the confident while doing it so well i think i was lucky? but i also can't deny that i did put in effort in this. I also put in effort in all my work but why no A+? haha as human we cannot be greedy yeah. :) so that's the only grade i know of but i guess the overall will not be so good because it's just the assignment. it's best to think on a normal side rather than aim for so high it might turn out differently from what we expect. Oh! one more thing i got a friend in poly well i used to think she is a nice girl not after working with her i realized well she lack of responsibility? I mean i can sacrificed this much for the group why can't you? Right? we are all humans i know u need your sleep i also need mine and i ended up getting sick because of lack of sleep for consecutive days. Haiz.. i'm so disappointed in her.  She once told me she rather buy something and give it to the person that help her than help the person back when he/she needed help. Don't you find it so irresponsible? she rather sort of like use a pay back method which is spending money than putting in effort in helping someone in return! I was shocked when i hear that haha but well different people have different method of handling things right? But i still can't deny how shocked i am at that moment when she told me about. 

Recently, i got into a big fight with my parents just because of one small issue. I don't know what's wrong with me or my parents but we can fight almost on everything and anything. So i know i was in the wrong well it always have been. But sometimes i just feel like i have to say something! My parents always like to say this that 'they are my parents and whatever they say is always right'. 'They are my parents for a reason'. 'They provide food and money for us'. 'They are our parents and we must treat them with respect'. ' Because we are your parents that's why we are more than qualified to do this'. Well i have enough of this because you are my parents! I mean i'm really happy that i am born in this family i am really greatfull for what i have. I know i should respect them who doesn't? I know they work very hard to provide us food and money. But somethings that they said are not right at all i can't really point it out now cos i like to forgot bad stuff. But they always say that like 'because they are my parents'. It doesn't mean they are my parents i shouldn't voice out my own opinion and my thoughts and how i feel. It's not like everything they say i need to do. My dad mention of me compromising and because they love me and they do this and like why can't i compromise? But the think that came into my mind is since u said u love me and i said i was having a terrible headache and a fever why not wait till tmr? of cos i wasn't using a nice tone. But what i said is the truth right? U said what i say hurt you badly u want to know why?(of cos i didn't dare to qn my dad about this) It's because partially you feel guilty about it because you know it yourself what the hell i'm talking about right? I admit having a bad attitude problem and i admit that it's hard to change who  i am as a person. Of cos at the same time trying to be nice. However, when a person  got angry or whatever of cos i will be agitated and raising my voice wouldn't i? I should be but now u say i can' because i can't raise my voice at my parents which is rude. I totally agree with that being rude. I agree! But please for goodness sake a person will always raise their voice when they are agitated. But than my sister tell me something to just keep quiet and let it go in and out of your ear. Ok then if that's what you want me to do i shall not say a word and let you think that u did a very good job or not break your heart. Because, i'm sick and tired of having so much argument and crying like some idiot. But i also hope that they will think back of what i have said. Not everything the parents said is right. Even though you live a longer life than me and experienced a lot but it doesn't mean you are right on everything. Even though i rant so much i still love them both dearly and i'm bless to have them. :)