Have been a long and tiring month for me due to assignments. Just a year back i thought i was dying from all the assignments thinking that i will never make it. But looking back they are just as easy as 1, 2, 3. Honestly, i don't think i'm up for the game. Thinking that well i'm a pro or something that can do it all. I feel like i'm constantly falling into this black hole unable to breathe and survive from these hurdles. Recently i felt something had changed between my friends and i in poly. Am i the only one feeling it? idk.. might be just an illusion which i hope it was.. I know i have always been trying to do well in my studies. Not have i once forgotten those who help me out when i struggle and when i needed help. I also try my very best to help them back if i could, But somehow whenever i wanna try hard to score well i find myself getting into this deep shit that cause people to dislike or hate me? Thinking that i'm are all so confident? I don't think i'm that confident of thinking that i'm a good student. I just feel that there is a need for me to accomplish until this level for this particular assignment. If i know i can't do it then i will give up. Just like how i deal with my dynamic web assignment. Some people might or might not think that i will just go and find them for help whenever i needed them. But here's the thing.. i want to talk to you but you don't want to talk to me. So the only thing i can talk to you about is asking you about hmw right? Other than that what else can i talk about? When inside i alr know that there is hate building up inside you. Whenever i talk to you i try to be cautious so that you won't have the wrong mindset about me. That's what i'm actually thinking about when i talk. I'm afraid afraid that they will think that i just wanted a A and get it through by asking you. But seriously i really hope this is not true.. all those words that you said is not to me but maybe someone else....
